i just felt one of those oppressive walls of “I’M FUCKING DONE” go through my entire system
"We think that the point is to pass the test or overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don’t really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together again and fall apart again. It’s just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all of this to happen: room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy."
boycott all businesses that pay any of their laborers less than 200% minimum wage. we are better than that.
for some chill music, make ‘the knife’ (artist) radio on pandora. yes, yes, it is quite nice.
i haven’t communicated with my grandmother since she accosted me for ‘not taking responsibility for myself’ when she really meant ‘not contributing to the capitalist economy’
she reached the end of her 80th earth year last weekend, and basically the entire family minus me went to celebrate.
my family isn’t much fond of me. i guess it’s mutual. i really only stay in touch with my mom and sister.
Be kind to yourself. Stop telling yourself that whatever you are struggling with “should” be easy. If something is hard for you, it is hard for you. There are probably Reasons, though those may just be how you are wired. Acknowledge these things. When you finish something hard, be proud! Celebrate a little.
And really, just stop saying “should” to yourself about your thoughts and feelings in any context. You feel how you feel. The things in your head are the things in your head. You can’t change either directly through sheer force of will. You can only change what you do. Stop beating yourself up for who and what you are right now–it isn’t productive. Focus on moving forward."